Living a one and a half life... That was what I thought of a teacher's life 4 years ago..like having a wholesome life in one hand; my real life(that I take so seriously and wholeheartedly) and in the other one, a life that I live through half heartedly (the life inside the school compound). But before you lodge a complaint to the Ministry of Education on me for being unfit to be a teacher or start a slander on me among your gossiping voltures, hear me out.. I do at quite some time feel really totally madly in love with my job and it's often over the most trifle things..but it's rather an on off kind of thing, depending on my mood. I did sometimes put my school life first before my real life if the wind is right. I stayed back for free tuition, performance practice , spent some cash on school stuff without claiming it back, break my vocal chord rooting for my sports team and to help around in some school programme.
But alas, in other times..i can be practically mistaken for a sluggish panda that works just for the sake of it n i couldnt care less about meeting and all the cartoonish and clownish Ministry programmes. Talking about kids..hm..if it was not the time of the month, if the students disobey my order i will just magically turn him or her into an invisible creature and ignore his or her existence. Moreover,I used to have a split image.. I'll be this one kebaye n hijab wearing teacher during school time and a person who challenged the idea of clothing itself during other time..
That was all what happened until this year.I think i can safely say that i 100% love my job and will try my best to always do. I dont know whether it's a real thing or just one of my seasonal attitude. But i notice this year, i have been this perky lil eager beaver that will not be satisfied if one student felt left behind. I will come and find you and smother you with attention until u suffocated and like my class..muahaha! I hve never been like this.I handled 3D1 so poorly last year. By the end of the year i just lost any hope on them. If i could turn back the time i would change everything. I still love them so dearly.
This year I'm keen to get the behind classes and i'm really willing to go to the extreme just to come up with lessons that they will enjoy. Judging from these 2 weeks, i think i'm doing pretty good, the kids make eye contacts and they really wait till it is the end of the class before they go to the loo ;)
I guess no more living a one and a half life...i'm proud to say that i'm getting and making the best of both worlds.
